2004?? Oh no, 2009!! "Timeflies"

Today, while I was checking something over the net, I came across a date and for like 2 seconds, I thought it's the year 2004, where from and why I got that thought, I honestly don't know why!! Why would I ever think it's 2004?? It's not like I thought it 2008 or 2007, but 2004, skipping 5 whole years is not a laughing matter! And oh God, it was just like yesterday this "2004" year... When did 2009 come into being, no idea!
Time is just passing by so quickly, and I am getting older by the day....And the question is, did I accomplish what I dream of? nope, not really..what is it exactly that I dream of? I am not really 100% sure, it's something....but it keeps on changing everyday...it's a hazy picture, but I know it includes traveling for one, but the fact that this picture is not clear in my mind is making me scared...I stop every now and then and ask myself, what is the thing that I really want to achieve in my life? it's a hard question to answer especially when the thing I dream of doing most is so hard and difficult for me to reach...I frankly have this feeling now that if anyone is reading this inexplicable blog would probably say: what is this person talking about anyway! I ask myself the same question friends! Maybe you can help me find out someday...I just wanted to make this point which is basically about time and this strange phenomenon that I think people are generally sensing about the passage of time... Years just seem to fly by one after the other...Do you feel the same thing? or am I just babbling?

Losing a Loved One

Losing a loved one! I wanted to write this note for so long, but I keep burying the emotions and I can't seem to get rid of them. They keep on breaking the surface whenever something or someone ignites the feelings and brings the memories back...it's hard to let go of the memory of those loved ones, whether they be relatives, friends or lovers. Actually, I don't believe that one really gets over the loss of somebody, it's just that one learns to accept the fact as time goes by, and realize that this loved person doesn't physically exist in his/her own life anymore; only in the memory...and that's when even the memory sometimes fails and it fades away!
In my relatively short life time, I've lost many loved ones, but only few of them are still vividly living in my life, and I think of them frequently. Others, I still love, but they don't really cross my mind except when their names are mentioned occasionally...It makes me think, do we remember people who influence us most, or people who we love most, or both? I come to think of those people I lost, grandpa, grandma, a cousin who was still a young man, a teacher, a couple of uncles..and I started comparing the feelings...the ones I still really miss and mourn are my grandpa, my teacher and most of all my cousin .... I literally can't get over the memory, it haunts me in my dreams a lot that I am starting to think that it will leave this scar mark in my heart forever...may be it is that sudden loss? or how much that person was close to my heart...I can't seem to decide..
But that's the nature of emotions, it's complicated, uneasy to define, a mixture of so many things on so many different levels that end up in something that is left unexplained to both our minds, and our souls, I give myself the liberty to call it a signature or an identity print that every one of us leaves on his/her fellow human being and it differs from one person to another, sometimes it's a print of love, hate, gratitude, admiration, respect or you name it...and finally when that loved one is gone, it's the thing that remains...and it's the feeling that we remember and the memory that we keep...However, there's that one thing that God has blessed us with; the a hope of meeting again, one day, we will no doubt get together in a better place where there is no sadness and no death...